juxtaposition

"even this late it happens

the coming of love,the coming of light.

you wake and the candles are lit as if by themselves,

stars gather,dreams pour into your pillows,

sending up warm bonquets of air.

even this late the bones of the body shine

and tomorrow's dust flares into breath."

 this is something, which strike my mind when I had a glance through this month's RD.i just wanted to copy paste these lines here in ma blog coz it depicts my plight. I am fucked up. I am here to give a snappy come back to all the buddies who asked me why am i single?yday night too one o’ma chat friends asked me the same que...i dint have anything to say. Was just keeping mum. For the whole night I searched for an answer. Before getting into this I want to ask you people, whether being single is such a nerdy thing?.Recently,someone or the other figured out that I’m nerdy. and u know the reason y I’m addressed like that?the reason is that I’m doing my prof course in a women’s college.well..You can call me anything a nerd, slapstick, goofy, or any thing you want.i don't care. I believe my self that I’m not that much single minded and indifferent. I want to reveal here something. I have been in love with someone. I have experienced the bitterness and sweetness of love. I know falling in love with someone is such a great thing, that is beyond, the words can explain. But think of a situation in which one is in serious love and the other person doing for time pass. and another situation in which you are in love with someone madly and the other one is in love with someone else.WTH!!It is very vexing! Break up is always painful. I have enjoyed the breeze of love and the flavor of being single.and now,bcoz of the reason that I’m single and not yet involved in any relationship, I would rather fancy that ,I love being single. I have no other choice other than this one. Again, may be coz of, feminism was over ruling my head ,and may be because o’I had convent education or I dint have enough time. As far as I am concerned, there are three things one should have if you are searching for a new relation. First and fore most things is that, you should be good looking. Moreover, the character is only the second thing. then you should find enough time to spend with your gf/bf.neways...sadly, may be thing that,I can’t satisfy these all  the 3 criterias enlisted above.true love happens only once in a life. Even when I was fucked by the loneliness and when tears blinked at my eyes, there were someone who gave me helping hand... Than x for the social networking sites for giving such awesome friends.ETARK was oneo’the best buddy I got from the social networking sites. Hats off to ya... :).

This will be a year-end post I think. wishing you people a happy and prosperous new year.ciao:).

HAVING A BLAST ON THE Xmas EVE.

                      I was enjoying a busman’s holiday week. No tution, no college,and I was totally free to go anywhere. I love to express this week as a filmy week. Saw quite a number o’hindi, eng & mallu movies. Most o’em was pirated one. :( .Then, hang out with friends were really interesting and funny. I felt like, it was nice to be busy over the trifles. we were having a blast and noooo studying. Which I love. :P.i had a great hankering to watch AVATAR. and luckily we got the tickets and went for the matinee on Tuesday. Reaching there was really tough for me coz the auto rickshaws were on strike and I had to depend on the KSRTC  and my own legsL.reaching over there, some seniors asked me to get tickets for em and I had to. then went to amb yday.”cake mela” was going on there. delivered pizza from the pizza corner, then to chowara beach with family. thus the days went. but sadly, I couldn’t pass the  Xmas message to any o’ma frnds coz of the fucking mob!gosh!it isn’t working..:(.

 Neways, merry Xmas to all once again. ciao.

DECEMBER ENDS…and I’m in an agog to see the new sun rise.

The days are gone. It was an unlucky day for me coz we had a plan to watch “AVATAR”. but luckily/unluckily we dint get the tickets. some thing like a sign board was hung in front of the SREE PADMANABHA like “house full”.ah…desp L.so we returned. reaching ma home sitting back in the couch, I felt like I should blog now searched for a topic in ma mind. then came the idea of college tour.bt actually wat should I post about that kodai trip? Just a monkey story? Or the “DJ nite” with out any DJ?ah..something flashed through ma mind. the name of ma blog.”CYNOSURE” seems to be a weird name. it doesn’t match with ma blog..i should change it to some thing like “my scribbling pad” I thought..yes..i’m gonna change the name…

So, the December is gonna end. there are only a few countable days for the new sunrise. its time to take new resolutions,wishes,promises,bla..bla..bla.newyas,the 2009 was an important year 4 me.it gave some awesome friends,memories,etc.withal the ups,there were some downs too.but..except my academics, all went fine I think. its the time I should realize the fact that life is all about fun plus some wailing incidents as worse as a homicide.09 prepared me to face the world and not the hoipolloi.i learnt something from each and every person met, it changed my style,thoughts,attitude,taste and every thing..insight,I realize I have changed a lot. I wanna say “hats off to someone” that I can’t reveal here. I’m hog tied to that ‘someone’s’ philosophy.

I reckon I can do ma best in the coming year. I wish a great peaceful new year and xmas to every one.

college tour

college life..

new sem starts....many hopes to come true..

fourth sem starts....i'm quite ok with it..xpt the AIC hour and humanities..its jst boring..bought some texts and a new bag...(nannakan theerumanichu):P.the very first day we bunked the afternoon session and went ECAP to do lab.now there is an xtra person in ma bench-ANAVUHB.nw we are 5! as asual we enjoyed the day by passing comments and our rotten chalus...nothing much to blog.cya soon.

hoping for a revert

ye,i'm back to blogging after a long tym...the day wasn't nt at all a gud one 4 me..nt this single day alone..from the day i took engg as ma prof course,the days were'nt colourful as i thought...before getting into the post,i like to inform u guys,it wont be a nice post..i'm fuming.i have lotta reasons..and the maj one is..i had internal lab xm 2day and i dint get the o/p...crying for these silly stuffs may b pathetic 4 u guys..bt..i really did...it may b pathetic..i kno..bt at the moment,i felt like crying and cried.days wer quite stagnant..i'm losinng self confidence,my potential....and every thing..i had.i'm asking to myself" am i studying or fooling around?".i kno,i may be fooling my parents for my enjoyment.right nw i'm searsing 4 a purgatory...my mind is that much messed up with things.wtf!.heavy hearted...in a brew...in an eddy!!:(

"wat did ya got from chatting and social networking sites?"one o'ma frnd asked me...i replied..some gud frndz and nothing else..

bt they cant fetch u marks.isnt it?

yeah..dat may b rite.

so here i can blame the social networking sites for a revamp...oly for a renovation..bt i'm aware o' the fact that,it is me who misused it....wat shld i do for a revertion??lemme think..think..and think.:P

Loveletter

In our college, the authorities won’t allow us to expatiate outta class during class hours, rather I will say, they won’t allow us to bunk classes. He he. So we (me,sthuthi,deepthi and anju) sat grudgingly inside the s3 ece during the after noon session. The after noon session was quite interesting. first hour we had NA(network analysis).i somehow managed not to fall asleep. Then the next hour we had ssd.we call it “sure supply device” coz its too tough. Even though we work flinty hard, it’s impossible to pass that paper .U should accept the plain truth that I couldn’t resist falling asleep. My eyes were drooling…I wished I had a couple o’ match sticks…for my eyes to rest. The next hour we had NA. We were really getting bored. So we decided to play trick on one o’our classmate AHCRA.she a funny girl with a lot of attitude.so, we stealthily decided to play some hanky panky on her. she liked a guy. We call him “paili”for fun. So I said to my frnds വെ can play some trick on her using him. So വെ( decided to write a chit, a small cute love letter.
“To dear archa,
I L U dear kurangi
From paili”

We wrote it in a small piece o’paper and asked AKIHTRAK who was sitting in a bench next to ours surreptitiously and we started giggling. She passed the chit to archa and said” I dunno the source o’this chit. It came somewhere from the back bench”. Actually I couldn’t resist laughing out loud. I dropped myself down to the bench and started laughing.rofl!!! AHCRA started reading the chit loudly. She was paused at the end.. But we dint expected a reply from her. She wrote in the chit
“Ennale rathri entha varathe cheta”And passed the chit to the back bench. We got it and read. we dint know what to do!

i am in an ectstasy..over powering emotions!!!!

I tried flinty not to go there with my mom and dad. But she wasn’t supposed to leave me alone.gosh! I wasn’t shoving. But I was thinking whether why she wanted me to go there. I was not at all interested. To be alone in a huge crowd of people, to smile at the unknown face and to wave hands against them. it was really vexing me. At last coz of the pressure over my head I grudgingly agreed.that evening my mom was having a get together.” Milan 2009” the tvm medicos students 1984 batch were celebrating there 25th anniversary.hmm…neways in a lack luster. I put on my new pink frock which I purchased before a month from parthas...And with in 15mnts, I was ready for the party. it was supposed to be held at hotel”udaya samudra”near kovalam.we reached there by 6pm.i thought my father will gimme a chance to drive the car but my mom was quite afraid about me even though he was ready to.hmm…we reached there, when we stepped into the reception, we saw two mallu film actors.”Saikumar” and bindhu panicker”.they were about to shove off I think. Being a lame duck, I strolled through the marble floor with em. It was a 5 star resort. It had almost all the facilities swimming pool filled with blue colored clear water,

clutch,accelaration,break........

The morning session was quite ok.sitting inside the s3 ECE,hearing what teachers teach ,taking down lecture notes,sleeping,passing comments, joking,….the day went off. In the evening, I had driving class. Some one should gimme Nobel Prize for peace for listening to venu uncle’s rotten chalus.huh! Rather; its better to say “ikkili akiyal polum chiri varilla”.he he.i usually love the driving class. But today what happened is, uncle taught how to apply brake, acceleration and clutch.see...i had great raring towards driving till yesterday. but today when he taught us how to apply all these crap, my mind was like”* %^&!@#@#%(&*)”.errrr.”When we start the engine, we have to apply the clutch fully…then the acc, then slowly release the clutch…bla bla bla”.at the very first moment when I heard this, I thought I wont go with this. I was very much confused and my hankering for driving changed to something we call “hate”. I was striving a lot for the first 5mnts.later on I managed to drive easily. I was rasping. Uncle was lol seeing my facial expressions and gestures….but my mind was murmuring that I can do this. But I dunno what would be my condition when he teaches me how to change the gear!!!Damn! Not any more to write...Adios! Amigos!

back to college!!

The day was quite boring. I was not at all interested to get entangled inside the 4 walls o'my s3 EC after the wonderful 5 day vacation. A tight schedule…lotta home works, rough records...Bla bla...ahh...i thought o’ running outta the class. Our maths mam was like a super fast xpress.i felt pissed about her teaching.errrr…then for a relief, I got a call from one o’my close friend who is studying NIT calicut.we had a conversation for abt 15mnts which was really funny. Through out the day I was giving publicity to my blog.hehe.hmm…neways…I am not getting enough time to blog.sryy…adios! Amigos!

its time to enjoy!!!!

From Friday onwards I have been enjoying my life…coz we only have to go to college on wed. I saw a couple o’movies.harry potter and the order of phoenix and another eng movie, a family entertainer. Studies were not getting done.bt we were enjoying ourselves. I and one o’my best friend darsha went ambrozia.it was the first time I went there. We both ate one sandwich and came back. I liked that place a lot. It’s a small shop with a lot of eatables. Both veg and non veg.i wanted to buy hot dog.bt coz o’ma friend is a veg I ordered for veg sandwich. it wasn’t that much good as I thought.bt I’ll say it was just ok. I couldn’t get a snap of my ambrosia visit coz we hadn’t had a cam.damn! Last week I got a book to read “the sittaford mystery” by Agatha Christie. It’s the first time I am reading one o’her book. It took 3 days to finish the first 6 chapters. I liked the way o’narration.as the name implies, it has a lotta suspense. I dint have patience so I went through the last chapter quickly to know who the actual murderer was!!

I am ready for blogging.......

I am ready for blogging….
Hey friends….I am only a beginner in the blogging world and the birth o’this blog is after getting inspiration from one o’ma chat friend prathik aka prejudic3 aka pjc.i am very much thankful to him coz…o’a lotta reasons that I cant compress it in one or 2 sentences.pls excuse if there are any mistakes coz as I said earlier I am just a beginner and my language wont be that much awesome.neways…I am glad to give a try on this.
The days were quite stagnant for me. I mean...I was off these days. I dunno what happened to me actually. Rather I would say something was brewing inside my mind that I cant reveal in this blog.its somewhat confidential…hey...Don’t get confused.u’ll be more clear what was actually inside my mind when u go through this blog.i think soo..
My friends say that I have changed a lot in a month. Yeah, May be… I know, I have changed a lot.coz…recently I switched to western music from the melodious eastern styles and become a lil bit philosopher. My philosophy was vexing almost all o’my friends.neways I was quite happy with that.u know something?? A few days before, I thought o’being an atheist.damn! But none o’ma friends supported this even though my parents weren’t bothered about it. I mean, they were least bothered about these stuffs and later on I realized I won’t go with this. So I dropped it with a lil bit frown. Then... coming back to western music, I just started hearing these stuffs. I mean it has been only one month I got hooked to these songs. I liked it much more than the eastern. I was crazy about westlife, BSB and linkin park. The first song I heard was “my love”. It was such a haunting song. I’ll say it’s awesome. Before going through this blog I expect every one to hear this.
“Where the skies are blue see u once again….my love”
“Where the fields are green see u once again my love”
It is soo touhing.it is haunting me every now and then
The last Sunday after “shikku” sir’s tuition we (I mean me and my friends) went to archies.it is a nice place to have chit chat. He he. It is in the heart o’the TVM city. A small ice-cream parlour.it was my 2nd visit to archies.i went last year there with my college friends. We hadn’t had enough money.but...Thinking o’having fun there we all set out. We took 2 autorikshaws and By 1pm we reached there. We were really hungry. We started reading the menu and ordered 3 nutty chaos, one cold duck, one faluda, one butter scotch. I liked to have nutty chaos. After some time, the bearer bought the ice-cream in front o’us.we all had a lotta fun there. We were giggling and passing comments, lol hearing the rotten jokes from the other friends and all. As I said we dint have enough budjet, we dint buy much costlier things. Our intention was only to fill our tummy. Then we had photo session with our wonderful ice-creams…it was quite funny. I finished mine within minutes and looked around thinking I’ll get a chance to eat someother's.he he. Then…rohini,one o'my college mate. She actually doesn’t like icecreams.so she asked me whether I can give a hand on that. I and jisha agreed and finished the huge cold duck within seconds.rofl! it was a nice one than mine.ahh...My tummy was really overstuffed. I dint thought what should I say when I reach home. I was sure that my parents wont scold me.coz they new me well. It was 2’oclock.we galloped.coz we were late by 1:30 hrs.u can imagine what would be the situation in our home.na?hm....

Our hang out pictures!!!!

Nutty chaos, butter scotch, faluda and cold duck….yummy!!!!
all o' u should try this at least once.Adiaos.amigos!!(Copycat…he he)