juxtaposition

"even this late it happens

the coming of love,the coming of light.

you wake and the candles are lit as if by themselves,

stars gather,dreams pour into your pillows,

sending up warm bonquets of air.

even this late the bones of the body shine

and tomorrow's dust flares into breath."

 this is something, which strike my mind when I had a glance through this month's RD.i just wanted to copy paste these lines here in ma blog coz it depicts my plight. I am fucked up. I am here to give a snappy come back to all the buddies who asked me why am i single?yday night too one o’ma chat friends asked me the same que...i dint have anything to say. Was just keeping mum. For the whole night I searched for an answer. Before getting into this I want to ask you people, whether being single is such a nerdy thing?.Recently,someone or the other figured out that I’m nerdy. and u know the reason y I’m addressed like that?the reason is that I’m doing my prof course in a women’s college.well..You can call me anything a nerd, slapstick, goofy, or any thing you want.i don't care. I believe my self that I’m not that much single minded and indifferent. I want to reveal here something. I have been in love with someone. I have experienced the bitterness and sweetness of love. I know falling in love with someone is such a great thing, that is beyond, the words can explain. But think of a situation in which one is in serious love and the other person doing for time pass. and another situation in which you are in love with someone madly and the other one is in love with someone else.WTH!!It is very vexing! Break up is always painful. I have enjoyed the breeze of love and the flavor of being single.and now,bcoz of the reason that I’m single and not yet involved in any relationship, I would rather fancy that ,I love being single. I have no other choice other than this one. Again, may be coz of, feminism was over ruling my head ,and may be because o’I had convent education or I dint have enough time. As far as I am concerned, there are three things one should have if you are searching for a new relation. First and fore most things is that, you should be good looking. Moreover, the character is only the second thing. then you should find enough time to spend with your gf/bf.neways...sadly, may be thing that,I can’t satisfy these all  the 3 criterias enlisted above.true love happens only once in a life. Even when I was fucked by the loneliness and when tears blinked at my eyes, there were someone who gave me helping hand... Than x for the social networking sites for giving such awesome friends.ETARK was oneo’the best buddy I got from the social networking sites. Hats off to ya... :).

This will be a year-end post I think. wishing you people a happy and prosperous new year.ciao:).

HAVING A BLAST ON THE Xmas EVE.

                      I was enjoying a busman’s holiday week. No tution, no college,and I was totally free to go anywhere. I love to express this week as a filmy week. Saw quite a number o’hindi, eng & mallu movies. Most o’em was pirated one. :( .Then, hang out with friends were really interesting and funny. I felt like, it was nice to be busy over the trifles. we were having a blast and noooo studying. Which I love. :P.i had a great hankering to watch AVATAR. and luckily we got the tickets and went for the matinee on Tuesday. Reaching there was really tough for me coz the auto rickshaws were on strike and I had to depend on the KSRTC  and my own legsL.reaching over there, some seniors asked me to get tickets for em and I had to. then went to amb yday.”cake mela” was going on there. delivered pizza from the pizza corner, then to chowara beach with family. thus the days went. but sadly, I couldn’t pass the  Xmas message to any o’ma frnds coz of the fucking mob!gosh!it isn’t working..:(.

 Neways, merry Xmas to all once again. ciao.

DECEMBER ENDS…and I’m in an agog to see the new sun rise.

The days are gone. It was an unlucky day for me coz we had a plan to watch “AVATAR”. but luckily/unluckily we dint get the tickets. some thing like a sign board was hung in front of the SREE PADMANABHA like “house full”.ah…desp L.so we returned. reaching ma home sitting back in the couch, I felt like I should blog now searched for a topic in ma mind. then came the idea of college tour.bt actually wat should I post about that kodai trip? Just a monkey story? Or the “DJ nite” with out any DJ?ah..something flashed through ma mind. the name of ma blog.”CYNOSURE” seems to be a weird name. it doesn’t match with ma blog..i should change it to some thing like “my scribbling pad” I thought..yes..i’m gonna change the name…

So, the December is gonna end. there are only a few countable days for the new sunrise. its time to take new resolutions,wishes,promises,bla..bla..bla.newyas,the 2009 was an important year 4 me.it gave some awesome friends,memories,etc.withal the ups,there were some downs too.but..except my academics, all went fine I think. its the time I should realize the fact that life is all about fun plus some wailing incidents as worse as a homicide.09 prepared me to face the world and not the hoipolloi.i learnt something from each and every person met, it changed my style,thoughts,attitude,taste and every thing..insight,I realize I have changed a lot. I wanna say “hats off to someone” that I can’t reveal here. I’m hog tied to that ‘someone’s’ philosophy.

I reckon I can do ma best in the coming year. I wish a great peaceful new year and xmas to every one.

college tour

college life..

new sem starts....many hopes to come true..

fourth sem starts....i'm quite ok with it..xpt the AIC hour and humanities..its jst boring..bought some texts and a new bag...(nannakan theerumanichu):P.the very first day we bunked the afternoon session and went ECAP to do lab.now there is an xtra person in ma bench-ANAVUHB.nw we are 5! as asual we enjoyed the day by passing comments and our rotten chalus...nothing much to blog.cya soon.

hoping for a revert

ye,i'm back to blogging after a long tym...the day wasn't nt at all a gud one 4 me..nt this single day alone..from the day i took engg as ma prof course,the days were'nt colourful as i thought...before getting into the post,i like to inform u guys,it wont be a nice post..i'm fuming.i have lotta reasons..and the maj one is..i had internal lab xm 2day and i dint get the o/p...crying for these silly stuffs may b pathetic 4 u guys..bt..i really did...it may b pathetic..i kno..bt at the moment,i felt like crying and cried.days wer quite stagnant..i'm losinng self confidence,my potential....and every thing..i had.i'm asking to myself" am i studying or fooling around?".i kno,i may be fooling my parents for my enjoyment.right nw i'm searsing 4 a purgatory...my mind is that much messed up with things.wtf!.heavy hearted...in a brew...in an eddy!!:(

"wat did ya got from chatting and social networking sites?"one o'ma frnd asked me...i replied..some gud frndz and nothing else..

bt they cant fetch u marks.isnt it?

yeah..dat may b rite.

so here i can blame the social networking sites for a revamp...oly for a renovation..bt i'm aware o' the fact that,it is me who misused it....wat shld i do for a revertion??lemme think..think..and think.:P